“Manifest Your Own Energy.” I think about this a lot. Probably because yoga instructors talk about this a lot. Or at least some form of the idea. But tonight is the first time I actually tried to put it into practice. To be honest, I’m skeptical. But, I’m hopeful too. And hope is a powerful thing.
I once knew a lady who told me that “The Secret” was witchcraft. We all know The Secret by now, right? Thanks to Oprah and friends. Well for those of you who missed that portion of errr let’s say 2007, the idea is all about positive visualization. If you truly believe something in your mind is true then it will come true. Kinda of self-proficy-like.
At the time I had talked to this woman I was 22 years old, and my college boyfriend had just broken up with me on my birthday. I’ll repeat that last part again, ON MY BIRTHDAY. Not that it matters, but to attend a White Sox game. Like, not even a Cubs game–COME ONE. I digress…
Anyway, I was still in that crazy state of mind of just having my heart broken that I wasn’t thinking/seeing things clearly. Of course I wanted him back and would do whatever it takes to make it happen. Thus, I turn to the secret.
This woman tells me no. That kind of witchcraft played with people’s mind. It makes them delusional and out of touch with reality. I didn’t care. I was going to get my boyfriend back. So I stopped talking to him and every single day for a week I repeated the same thing over and over in my head, “You and Dave are still together. You are going to get through this and he’s going to call you.” “You and Dave are still together.” “You are going to get through this.” “Everything is fine.”
I said it in my head over and over. I wrote it down in notebooks. I wrote it in fake e-mails at work. And you know what? At the end of that week he did call. And we did get back together and I thought HOLY SHIT IT WORKS. And then you know what happened? Two months later he left my apartment to go “move his car” and I never saw him again.
So where does that leave me? I will tell you one thing: When I’m in a good mood. When I’m kind to others. When my heart is open to anything–magic happens. So yeah, maybe I can’t dream that I’m a millionaire and it comes true. But I today I walked with my heart open to anything and closed to judgement and you know what happened? I made a new friend–someone who was once a complete STRANGER–and that, my friends, is magical.
Happy Friday loves.